You are not Alone

In middle school I suffered extreme bullying for a very simple and quite idiotic reason... I was the smart kid who like to do well to make the teachers happy and had strong morals to do the right thing..... Now how is that a good reason to bully someone? Well apparently in the Getto that is the reason to make a little girl's live a living hell. I was emotionally torn apart by other girls to the point I was crying in class and trying to explain it away to concerned teachers. I didn't want to cause a fuss. Well until the day I was locked into my own locker. Yes you read right I was shoved into and locked into my own locker. And was stuck there for probably nearly half an hour until a teacher heard me banging on the metal.

I will admit, I was near the end of my mind by the time we moved because my father got a better job. I had seriously considered taking my life only a few times when I couldn't think that I could deal with the girls in school tearing me apart any more. But I would think of how much my parents cared and even though I never told them what was going on until years later, just knowing they would be there for me kept me from doing something to myself. Needless to say I became stronger from the event, I became a person people could come to if they were having emotional problems, but I was left with some insecurities about myself the most prominent one being I shouldn't try to excel I will just be torn back down. I'm working really hard to get over that one but its deeply ingrained into my mind right beside the feeling that if I don't succeed the first time I never will.... I think that one came from middle school as well....



Sorry if its a little jumbled I haven't had a chance to get it all out at once in a while. So I decided to draw an image for Spirit Day, the national anti-bullying day. I just have a message to people, don't keep quite about it, tell someone, your parents, a concerned teacher, your friends. No mater how much you don't want to rock the boat, your life is more important, and don't keep all those emotions bottled up inside of yourself, they will show themselves in unpleasant unwanted ways if not vented in a cathartic way.